Mindlessness [June 2005]

break—
fractured, splintering, shattering
falling, glittering soundless and eternal moment
glass shards—

lost and searching, seeking—
—lost within myself.

falling
turning
twisting
in a room of darkened mirrors

tattered wings.
scattered feathers.

worth-less, nowhere, no one, empty.

where am I

want to talk can’t find words
trapped
want to cry scream yell -
who do I turn to, and where?
how do I let it out?
building inside, I don’t know
What it is and I want - need - to loose it
let it out and how do I
—cut it away but can’t do that

nothing left is there? is, but can’t find it
can’t figure out where to go what to do
mind is gone and where’s my heart

where do I go
what do I do
how do I let go
how do I release